Saturday mornings

Saturday mornings are good for writing. They release a scent of leaving behind a week of work in The Machine and finally having time to relax, to enjoy my coffee while listening to some old tavern jazz form a guy with a name I won’t remember in the afternoon. I love as well the silence that comes with it, the faint buzzing of the outside world as heard form a 26th floor of a Parisian building, the semi-obscurity of the room due to long blood-red drapes and the closed window rolls that don’t actually cover the last two squares near the coffee grinder by the kitchen. The inside is a modern mixture of old, of functional and some IKEA, with french shadows and German linings and an eastern-Europe Greek Orthodox accent embodied in the icon of the Virgin Mary with Child throning on the wall, right from the entrance. I always wanted a wooden floor and when finally found one, I put a fat blue rug right on the middle next to the sofa covered in white, gray and black squared plush. The refrigerator stands white and tall, and mostly silent, humming its tune in a duet with the English radio on its top next by the 6.99€ plant bought form a shady LIDL nearby. The wooden basket used for garbage sits on the other side of the fridge, hidden form the room, next to the sink, cooking table, oven and anything one could wish for a kitchen in a 33sqmt Paris studio flat. A magnet with a housewife flexing her biceps and spelling “We Can Do It”, sticked onto the white large front of the fridge seems awfully out of place, like a hint of putrid Americanism as that one cactus I had to throw in the bin of the three I got as a new home present from a couple of friends visiting from out of town. The darts game hanged not far, sleeps gathering dust since two or three days after stumbling upon it in a shop outside of Paris and thinking it would be a great idea of an activity during the first confinement. And there is that red cat collar with a golden bell from a chocolate Easter bunny that would ended up as decoration, never to be actually eaten, and now pended form the handle of the right upper kitchen shelf. One last slice of baked pumpkin, half an almond bread and traces of coffee and maybe spices spread near the electric cooker added an ordinary and domestic touch to the scene.

There is a calming loneliness laying all around, emanating from the static, dead nature, shy like a virgin teacher, kindly asking to be disturbed in a warm and joyful manner…

Life Oddity

I wrote an epistle to Father,
sung my sweetest lullaby
I checked the engine for another thousand times
no thing left to one’s imagination,
life’s a crumble made with salt
spice may never alter paths sculpted on the dunes,
the oasis nowhere to be seen
but in my most futile dream, so far away…
charge your paddles up to fifty-eight
stay clear!
lazy hearts may never feel and walls are going up forever
stairways takes your steps to last and cruel judge,
I held your hands,
I tried to catch the butterfly that went away
and then the stillness comes leaving but the story to be told
and my spirit gets so old,
my heart a stone
gone,
you left me all alone,
only darkness at the dawn….

Armistice (II)

Sixty years it took for glory
walked past and jumped the queue
like craving sold by drugsters
love burns but you never do…

***

coffee no sugar and Billie Holiday for this cold little heart
“when you’re smiling, the whole world smiles with you…”
baked pumpkin from last night and salty seeds,
I wander still
will you sing Hallelujah?
or let my wishing lean…

***

“On The Road” today
ran from Denver east back home,
the story tells

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Happy anniversary!
(…)
N.B. Don’t forget, the cake

November’s 5

1. The Killers – My Own Soul’s Warning


2. Matt Berninger – One More Second


3. Bruce Springsteen – Janey Need A Shooter


4. The Rolling Stones – Love Is Strong


5. Jayomi – Remember


BONUS: Neil Young & Crazy Horse – Be The Rain

Azulejos

I make up stories to survive
and paint them in my bright blue vibe,
remembered thoughts form yesterday
eyes that smiled before they went away,
like that evening on our deck someday
long before the hair turned gray…

I loved a girl and she loved me back
but why were I so sweetly sad
it must’ve been a void I truly had
for I woke up, it was too late…

I shall remember you
as the days we danced and the moon,
the tram 28 and narrow paved roads
you showed me but I could not see
blind to the light that shone in me…

Azulejos, to give life to walls
one poem may reach your soul,
the evening was sad the evening was cold
but not as much as the last words she’s said…

It’s music that runs through me
an old lady singing,
she knows my heart like the back of her hand
not in the words she spells
nor wrinkled notes on her head,
for poetry is one lonely friend…

St John

I’ve left ashes on the counter as your image through the smoke
and the whisky bottle never empties in the shadow of our Lord
dance is twisted moving close
music falls like icy rains
steps are down and up they go
glasses sleeping on the floor
yet the rainbows lack to come…
I have seen her in the crowds young and never losing ground
with a storm front in the eyes and the thunder down her thighs
running faster than the thought
brings my heart beating delight
bruises on the southern peak
kissed my cheeks with burning hips
yet the colors have left home…
Then the water turned to wine just before the St John’s time
and the devil made me drink from this bottle for a while…

Sfârșitul

Sfârșitul e aproape
coloanele se înclină peste ceruri
umbra ta dispare în soarele ce naște
pașii în nisip sunt gânduri puse-n ghips
ochii se închid –
mătase se revarsă prin jaluzele trase
ape izvorăsc din piatră
orașul se transformă în stihie fără dogmă,
îngenuncheați primim chemare
rădăcini de sare celor spovediți în Mare
degetele rupte
mere de alamă
Edenul este o cursă cu suflete de sticlă
trandafiri din plastic
toamnă de pe pânze,
ceara ta fierbinte curge peste buze
fiecare carte răpește o himeră
cuvintele șuvoi,
ia-le înapoi,
eu doresc lumină –
sfârșitul e aproape
șoaptele sunt coapte
plouă peste trupuri cu baionete roase
din inimi nemișcate macii se înalță
dar orele, orele sunt moarte…

Setea

Camille Pissarro – June Morning, View over the Hills over Pontoise

Am pictat la așternut de seară
condurii tăi cu talpa măslinie și luna presărată în geam,
în linii uniforme am unduit o apă
să zăbovesc în brațele-i doar nuferi-gânduri
și torțe roșii într-un lan din veșnicie…

Plouă peste oază și stoluri curg în mare
nimicul se adună și e o sete care doare
când din țărână crește iarbă și din iarbă nasc stejarii
durează-mi Mare temelii din stânci cu tâmpla albă
și-mi sculptează tu Iubito sufletul din sare…

Vino-n vis cu mine în noaptea cea mai lungă
să răsărim necunoscuți în calea de pe urmă
să-ți scriu ochii în poezii și piept în florile de viță;
oare mai răsfoiești tu stele aprinse peste zare
și insule din zile cu misterul șoaptă temătoare?

Vision

I want to hide from the present day
in a conscious thought of my own
beaten and outside the law
my God has forgotten me
the steps go down,
from the darkness that is left to shine
I want to run
why won’t you let me be a sinner?
beauty that I crave
when nothing else can’t touch me
I just need to feel
the deserts sliding through my hearts,
into so much place to build
I want to hide from me now
my face covered in dust
no mirrors to see me
only essays in art,
I am a sinner
love is for the absent mind
it does not obscure my eye
I can still see words in between…

Portretul lui Alice

Noapte
frunze mov pe aleea de pe marginea lacului
mână caldă, degete reci
ochi felinare – privesc și le iubesc fără să văd
brațele ramuri, picioare stinghii vopsite mov
dragostea odihnește în mine aripi ce bat înspre cer…

o chemă încă Alice
un nume ce-l purta fără să știe înainte să o cunosc
în lumea din oglindă,
ca o neliniște pe valuri ce izvorăsc între stele
trăiește în întrebare, temătoare
vâslind, vâslind, vâslind
viață, între bulgări de soare –

și-a pierdut chipul
roșu ca o inimă, într-un câmp cu maci
sorbind portocale fierbinți sâmbătă seara;
Alice, lași urme de pași pe dale
Alice, lași urme
Alice!

îți creionez sufletul
în Marea din spatele pleoapelor
unesc zenit cu nadir și între ele conturez o lume
te răpesc pentru mine
nemuritoare în clipă ca o apă care curge
tânără tu, tânăr eu
vise-gânduri sculptate de timp…