Re-birth

…they had rhythm
good style
restless feet, souls on fire;

and I dream of no desire
empty hands with fingers feathers
gift of giving
easy, slender, passion, burning
I recall the rains hot
on my knees at the closed doors
temple of stone, house of my Lord
“Let her be filled… with joy”
a walk in the park
yelled at the dark
I noticed The Star
purple one,
so far
not a figment: a part
of my poor heavy twisted heart…

and then I wrote days
and drank hours and bathed in light
so someday I might
draw her a kite
and run and run and run
to the beginning of time
once more
each step of the way,
again and again
I thank you each day
for the hurt and the joy
that made me whole
forged in stone
a giant of sorts…

Under God

I don’t need your silence
I despise the calm
revolution,
turning on the time
the staircase wakes me up
painting my world upside down
I can feel the sacrifice…
no more leaps on your Church
the steps are marked in ancient blood
the voices crawl within
the heavy doors are thin –
long past midnight
I chose a different path to walk
another God to serve;
from nothingness comes struggle
the debt is payed in sorrow
after darkness follows light
as we forget the saints…

Unwanted

I am the
I am the darkness
the might to be
and the state of being I can not control,
a feeling
lost in between times
a single line going straight to you…
you are a friend
but not the one to me
and I scream into the void
I scream my will to exist
free from fear
free from the prison I have accepted in me
I will you to be,
the one
the one that is there waiting for me
a doorway to another existence
another chance to be
free form weight
open to all
gravity pulled
sunward emotion
I need a feeling to transform my devotion,
love me
adoration
I am but a soldier
unwanted commotion,
you love me
the emotion
I am
resolution
darkness
my way is commotion…