Dandelion fields forever

Dandelion Field Painting by Igor Barkhatkov

Unsober is the day,
foul play on sleepless nights
The Guns are awfully absurd
The Stones are even further,
I can’t find my music and the words won’t follow
dreams are ending with an artificial flavour
politically wasting years of savage force,
I need more than substance
to hang pretty portraits on a straighter wall
to preach the passion buried deep inside
build newer gods in the image of my kind,
I need darkened mountains
I need fertile valleys with running sky clear waters
to wash my sorrows and bury deep my fears
in the shadow of a greater fuller purple moon…
brick by brick, in the dark
breath by breath, doors closed, windows high
the heart collapses from the harder stronger grip,
I need a supernova, not only the spark
an exploding sunshine to burn one way out
to put down the unrest
to unspill the ink from the very first page,
in a coffee shop up that steep road
where dark roast and winter black tea
slowly wrote us to unstaged tragedy
the war and anguish, the spite I covered in me,
I need a blue spring
to walk anew the dandelion fields forever…

The fall

fall is coming rain and chill
dusk colored hot spice
and your blonde turns red
shinning silver to one’s breath
walking barefoot like a tiger
you serve wonders for desert,
twenty something miles ashore
where your blue turns green
feels like seventeen once again,
the young shapes on the floor
unless knees are bruised on fire
can’t spell ire form desire,
and we are fast driving
but I still need more –
a supernova in a winter storm
wild dancing and changing form
giving life to amazing chaos
filling up the heart and soul
without rhythm and control
bringing music to the whole,
is a spark I could call love…

Under God

I don’t need your silence
I despise the calm
revolution,
turning on the time
the staircase wakes me up
painting my world upside down
I can feel the sacrifice…
no more leaps on your Church
the steps are marked in ancient blood
the voices crawl within
the heavy doors are thin –
long past midnight
I chose a different path to walk
another God to serve;
from nothingness comes struggle
the debt is payed in sorrow
after darkness follows light
as we forget the saints…

Julia

odd key is out of tune
the turning never ends
a big house with big windows and bigger skies still,
the glass is half empty
even half full
and the noise is killing slowly
in your face I see the fall,
where is the beauty ?
where is the pain ?
where is that life
happy,
insane,
they die one after the other
heroes of thy father,
and I lie my ear down on the strings of a sound that never spins…

I am in the wrong,
for how much long ?
out of pity
it grows
it feeds on the sadness
larger than the world that it quotes,
blue tainted hair and blue painted nails,
it scars the skin
it bleeds
and it dreams,
in between hills
where the water spills
the burning has passed with a bottle of gin
and so,
Julia dreams…

of X and Y

writing became stale,
my thoughts linger outward in a redundant and unskilled manner
in hesitant yet concise steps,
nothing but disgraceful sampling of the unattended entropy…

the inner equation is unfit
the variables tremble,
either there is no constant or the definition may be inaccurate
so the pursuit of an X proves fruitless
and it is more of a Y than anything else;

I,
a single letter to me
it is key to understanding…

You,
poetry seeks insight
there is a rhythm to follow, an elegant musicality
the incorporeal promise of beauty and excitement
as imagination unfolds at the very moment the eyelids drop –
a slap to the senses :
is there anything left for … ?

Honey

Dear friend,
I’ve lost my way going south…
trapped in a dream that is not really mine
building bricks to build up the Wall
people are wrong
tell me who you are,
I need music
my voice will it suffice?
when in the craving
I fill up the cases
and then fade in some way…
my fingers blue
my sight alright
are there any purple stars?
dancing
with
my
heart
there is not much light
on the other side
of the line I followed from the start;
Love –
how do you measure
how can one know
the steps you have taken
the strings you have severed
brought you any closer
or made you whole,
a simple choice
her hand is made of white noise…

The Breaker

I am the darkness, I am the world
this is the suffering, do as you’re told
you have no choice,
it’s beyond control
in this dungeon, in the cold
this is where it takes your soul
immortal life from the above
you’ve been dreaming since day one…

I am the silence, I am the wreak
in this longing there is no break
there’s no fire for them to see
your eyes are filled with misery,
no equation, no chemistry
love’s a lie and so is she
shadow covered memories
you broke it all and you can’t feel…

I am the fate, the voice of reason
calling your name in this prison
stretch your arms,
break the machine
give your mind an atomic spin,
chase your devils, loose your hounds
I am fire, I am the blood
when I seek I never hold
never do as you were told!

For I am the voice, I am the rage
that never screams when out of stage,
I am the heat, I am the heart
I am the beat and the savage night,
thoughtful king and cruel master
a monster ride on a purple kite,
a beast of many sorts
I am the pure glorious life…

Not a fool

Fortuna - Drawing by Tay Aguilar
Fortuna – Drawing by Tay Aguilar


Do not call me “Darling”, don’t ask me to be cool
you compete with Fortune, my heart is rock ‘n’ roll
on this highway ain’t a hiker and my tank is nearly full
I can’t cite from Shakespeare but I’m not a fool
and going back to Twin Peaks is of very last resort,
share this ride together until it’s coming to an end
cherish every moment for tomorrow’s just a gleam…

There will be no puppies and no tattoos on my hands
slow she poured Martini, I poured whisky on the coke
night was turning purple and the stars a shade of green
holding down the mountains one may hear a little scream
I have crossed the waters to what came from in between,
and in the storm I dream of shelter to the break of dawn
keeping straight is not a virtue but a ransom of its own…

The Giant

The Stone Giant by Anna Höglund



was it but a dream
all the rainy mornings dressed in skin
the evenings in the cold chasing purple stars,
young hearts never getting old
lovers in the chain of storm
fast cars crashing down
some things turn to gold, others never hold;
what I miss the most
is a song my lips be spelling in the scent of Holy Ghosts
on high rocky roads crossing
you were naked in the wild
with a smile dressed in white
and everyone that came along
carved and carried larger stones…
so,
give me back the music and let me play my cello
I still hear the horses
can you keep it breathing until we reach the border?
Alice,
I remember now –
you gave me the stories and I gave them hope
grains of silver on a field of stone,
and I don’t need no colors
to paint it back alive
for I’ll always be a Giant
awake in the exploding Sun…