The Mountain

June - Silver Demon 2020 Vinyl Album Artwork by Lee Douglas

Demon,
you want me on my edge
keeping me alive to make me fall again,
remembrance,
beautiful memories,
polka dot pink elephants that were seldom meant to be…
Oh demon,
stop threading rivers in the dark
don’t make me wish for miracles I never asked
for I am the sea,
with everything inside
I’d never lose my spark
not for love nor red blooded virgin isles…
Demon,
I am a mountain –
you are running backwards on my trails
in a sky so full of diamonds,
absolution
there is no crown and everything may break
but I am a mountain…

Melancholy

©A fabulous woman

Hard covered, written with the gift
you found a book to live by it
then I kissed you on the wrong right cheek
since the night the pages fled was so dark I could not see,
wished a poem brought you back
to that wicked pub where we last danced
but it is too late,
statement’s made in white, bowing under petrol eyes
and I got the Sun inside to shine no wisdom –
could I burn you if I tried?
is there purpose in this drive?
felt each time he asked “are you a Jew?”
“no, I’m not!” just one among so many few
something lost in between the pagan I have been
and your perfume in the London fumes
I would touch yet would not feel,
taught me how to nurture and not to stir
on the memories we shall become
let them flowers grow
a whole garden painted on a purple sky…

The Silence

Where does it all begin,
up until we end together I may spill a thousand dreams…
I’ve been given a broken ladder
but the courage was within,
I have shaped my words in pain and painted purple in the dark
saw you sparkling,
you left shadows in the chambers of my heart –
that sweet emotion,
always longing for those lights up in the mountain…

In the end we are alone
swimming in our ocean,
strangers –
nothing more than falling stars burning to exhaustion,
looking not for love but all there is to give
our passion for another…

Sonnet for a friend

What to scribble when there’s nothing left to say?
only scattered pointers, lines and colon breaks,
happy words I used before are turning meaningless
and the page is blank each time I do confess…

there is this growing fear engulfed in nothingness
wished I had a burning heart like the furnace in the sun
or a heart of clay to mold the passion through my days,
but I’m built from aching flesh and longings in a dream…

climbing on a ladder leading to no end
I must’ve lost the way for looking back I saw no other
only darkness dressing up the feelings I’ve held in
and I asked myself “Oh father where do I begin?

the music

lucky notes and lyrics written for no fame
on a New York City oldest grumpy stage
with empty chairs,
in the end
music is what still remains
and there’s no shame,
we walked those roads and climbed the stairs
in pairs –
we were young and had no care
nothing could’ve bothered,
hair was long and rich and brown
riding in my mustang ’65
money scarce but love was strong
was all that mattered…

lucky strikes in nameless pubs
after shots and after dark
poured us whisky in the jar
and we never stopped the gig
until the end –
fell in love with life that I dissent
white porch, roses and a swing
so we ceased to be a thing
but music played,
nothing could’ve stopped the beat
round that summer in the heat
I did write my greatest hit
but it’s a sad song
for it was wrong…

as with poets rise and fall
Rolling Stones be getting old
and Bowie,
David’s in the stars with Cohen
and I’m even more alone
in this kingdom built from gold,
the gold is cold –
like empty chairs surrounded by a whole
it’s raining roses
in the New York City oldest famous hall,
the music never stopped…

round that summer in the heat
I did write my greatest hit
but it’s a sad song
for I was wrong…