1. DIE ANTWOORD – Age of Illusion
2. Red Hot Chili Peppers – Eddie
3. First Aid Kit – Out of My Head
4. Billy Idol – Running From The Ghost
5. Simple Minds – Vision Thing
6. Ozzy Osbourne – Dead and Gone
7. Nickelback – San Quentin
Bonus : VOLBEAT – Becoming
1. Editors – Karma Climb
2. Starcrawler – She said
3. Red Hot Chili Peppers – Black Summer
4. Wolf Alice – Feeling Myself
5. Tears For Fears – My Demons
I… AM
the music and the glitter
ideas, connected, and the space in between
a notebook with blank pages to be filled
stories
love
depression
what makes me alive if not pain?
I am between contradictions
going for size, color, harmony, feeling
an eye to the Lady on the wall with the hand seeking pleasure
redemption, maybe
and I did try the math, the logic, equations –
the heart opposed,
full stop
explosions
LSD –
Lucy, where are you Lucy?
Her prince came soon after
the place was empty
need
lack of time, indecision, illusion of choice
no need for white horse
happily
ever
after?
Beauty?
I do not see YOU
I relate what I feel
context
opposition
similarity
sound is heart of true meaning,
and you play the piano
faulty, scrambled yet real, all for me
easy to fall
deeper
into a lifetime of YOU and I…
I AM
you and I –
mirrored
…
painted face
mud,
my arms have roots in this soil
rewind
my arms have roots in this soil
I ran –
I ran for the sundown
the silence
colored wavy red clouds
tiny,
the yellow was young
gray stalled
call me not
rusty scissored Todd,
cold
cold
the cigarettes I smoked
for love
blue dust
and nights in central park
rebound
cry
rebound
cry
rebound
the petrol skies
lost
in the eye
where do you end and when do I begin?
within
seek in
pages left wrong
the need to feel
right
I killed before I died –
stand tall
say grace
nothingness is asking for my space
the words
the waves
meaning or mess
mud painted face –
I caved
I gave
up, up and away
cripple
sum of all deeds
hope
hands in the stone
when expecting the least
I am the beast…
1. Leonard Cohen & Judy Collins – That’s no way to say goodbye
2. Billy Raffoul & JJ Wilde – Let Me Go
3. The Lumineers – BRIGHTSIDE
4. White Lies – I Don’t Want To Go To Mars
5. The Divine Comedy – The Best Mistakes
BONUS 1. The Dead South – You Are My Sunshine
BONUS 2. The Dead South – People Are Strange
1. AC/DC – Witch’s Spell
2. The Goon Sax – In The Stone
3. Sharon Van Etten & Angel Olsen: Like I Used To
4. Bleachers – 45
5. Wolf Alice – Delicious Things
1. Wolf Alice – No Hard Feelings
2. Greta Van Fleet – Heat Above
3. Grouplove – Oxygen Swimming
4. Transviolet – Drugs in California
5. Mothica – FUNHOUSE
BONUS : Five Finger Death Punch – Darkness Settles In
I got shot in the dark
with the gun I used to break their hearts
shattered in a million pieces all I’ve left is broken wishes
missing form the greatest puzzle
the wrong answers to the right questions,
they will paint my face on the bigger picture
tell me stop
ask me be better
held on to the feelings my chest could not gather,
I have seen you naked but my skin was covered
taking in the space between us, the whole grew larger
nothing more to share but attaching distance
you call the rains but the soil is poison
and I want to grow and seed a forest, larger than the world…
Beautiful borders that we forgot to seal
turned from yellow flowers to red brick walls
and the song I used to play never called you anyway,
I gave her a name and she marked it down in stone
it did not change it did not even glow
acting in a story that we somehow stole
the rhyme is off
the tempo is cold
and I am freezing when we should be burning slow,
the nights are longer with the steps we take
what there is to do when there is nothing left to say
my heart belongs to me in the most profound of ways,
if this won’t kill us it is not a passage of any kind
for I can not see the future yet I am far from blind…
I am drinking red wine that turned into blood
metallic with a taste to cut out your tongue
it feels like the days I spelled your eyes wrong
and you gave me water that washed our souls,
Miss Wright is out of control
Mister Wong is ever so bold
tell me to stop
ask me be better
nothing left to do before I write this letter
something must change or it’s hog-killing weather
I can not go the same to the end of summer
it is in my bones that I seek an honest meaning
and if you ever try again tell me so I can take cover
love is a curse but it must not be made harder…
1. Birdy – Surrender
2. Bon Jovi – Story of Love
3. Manchester Orchestra – Bed Head
4. Foo Fighters – No Son Of Mine
5. The Weeknd – Save Your Tears
Good Times BONUS: Coldplay – Paradise
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