Monologue

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“Where did I go wrong?”
“You didn’t!”, it’s in my mind, a longing for destruction,
don’t swim in the boiling water, why would you take it as a drink?
my bones hurt,
the air is so heavy,
I’ve lost my child while going to the Church,
pure eyes, pure need,
why would you believe? “Why don’t you stay?”
“I’m already away..”
run, they say, stay, they say,
giants can’t read the book of John of things to come;
“You don’t listen!”
“I hear your thoughts…”, they think I’m lost,
one step closer,
two bricks harder to reach,
don’t open doors that won’t take your key,
“Slow down…”
there’s a morning to each,
too white, too dark,
“I can feel the spark!”
“Should be burning now..”,
and go, they say, come, they say,
the voices fade, till one day…

Ghost-town

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I am wondering in the darkest of nights
where my steps seek the ground before their way down,
there is no soul in the streets and cardboard boxes block all exits,
it is so dark the voice can not pass and I may as well close both my eyes…

The smell of skin I feel it’s unfamiliar, fogy and synthetic,
a hand grabs my leg and I stumble to find my path,
it hurts from the skin and goes to the bones
it’s a song but all I can tell apart are people who scream,
and in the absence of the sun the world doesn’t cool down
so I melt into the cement and finally found a way out…

Where is the white horse that brought me here?
I can see the saddle on a pile of skulls,
might as well take a Harley to next town,
soldier of fortune going through hell and fire
does this make me feel or is it still a nightmare?

Give and Take

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I came down the snail house stairway, in the middle of your dreams
and my feet was made of hunger on a floor of broken sea shells,
I came looking for your home with my flag, a box of wood, big hearted,
the road one took was nowhere to be found and nor did I saw the postman,
only pillars set on fire with each and every prayer at the border of desire..

You’ve left me in the middle, my throat is barking at the night
I’ve tried to pull on the lever to no effect for there’s no fulcrum in my head,
and the songs I listen to are saving me from hell and nailing up my coffin,
sixty days give or take worth a thousand years of dirty thoughts and fame,
I killed the sun and dig holes in the cement while you rest the same…

I took a plunge in an ocean, there are sharks all around for as far as I can see
their teeth are shiny and sharp daggers and you are dancing with me,
before the end of this summer I’ll find a trail in the sand and a way to your sea,
and early in March I’ll plant a flower tree like I saw in a dream,
are you with me or I can not give,
a taker to take the core and the coat, are you with me?

 

A song with paddles

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Morning comes fast anew with no sun and stone hearted chilly winds,
and terrible sounds one can hear of a machine meant to induce fear
turn my gears and start to tear, growing up a need to smash,
and the shower filled with mice might be kinky and kind of nice,
the dark pea soup wrongfully called coffee mingles with a slice of bread,
I mirror-met the guy my girl called Ted, very much a bear looking for it’s cave,
and I’ll turn thirty in two weeks and all I need is to break bricks
and hopefully I’ll blow candle that my life is up to handle…

I went viral days ago so tonight it is turning hot like the furs in Camelot
and the tree cut in half hails the ghost of an Irish teller passing-by,
“Will you bring me cotton candy?” asked the lost boy
“Will you paint my leafs in gold?” asked the same girl,
running with a naked feet, the cement doesn’t change the face
and steps I take towards the fountain are never to remember
only wind and rain and holes once upon a November…

Living in temptation

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I took a hundred steps that morning
and took a hundred handshakes to the sunrise of the mind,
seven dwarfs to follow much like seven deadly sins to sink the thoughts
and cigarettes on dew and lighters in the cold,
her fingers running down the spine and coffee in a jar just before the wine,
fighting wars, loving deadly, living for today, building up tomorrow
all we did was gone and borrowed…

Places that I’ve seen by the open window of the trains I’ve ridden
pierced the shape of things to come,
and much alike a Scottish dream the lover’s chained to burn
and we drink their blood
and we feast upon the innocence that never fades,
deep into our lake that shines a billion lights
we never broke a promise as of yet…

And I’ve no regrets, nor hate or feelings of disdain,
the chapter’s filled with clouds and ash and dreams
and battles with white whales and even shattered glass,
and cold mornings still remind me of a cottage lost in foggy hills
where maps were drawn with borders black and bold only to be crossed,
and knights and magic do remain
where each of us is young and lives forever…

Giant’s walkaway

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Once a day the sun walks down the giant steps at river’s south
and fire ants begin to crawl and drag along theirs joyful friends, letting go of all pretense,
on the bottom of a bottle they put dreams and let it float,
and runners run and rollers roll and clouds will go and skies won’t fall,
and all the songs I’ve listened told me where to go,
the gorgeous and the guy and fountains of a kind remind me of a taste I used to share,
long before I saw her eyes and long before she’s gone
I’ve searched myself for signs and burned a candle to The Lord,
did you ever strike the chord or will you always play in Re Bemol?

Once a year the giants walk along the evening sun,
the game is tight and no one knows what they’ll come to find,
you never dress in red for it has been told to be bad and so believes your dad,
I’ll kiss you on the cheek and write a letter to say goodbye
and I’ll drop the brick I carried in my chest for at least 9 months,
for I am a rock and I will change for nothing and for no one anytime,
only rain will care for me and wash away my dirt and stain
and the weight I put on things will build borders to the sin…

260 miles of blue

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I fell deep into the horse’s fountain and got yellow stains on fingers and small clothes of elvish green,
it’s time to run again in fields of thoughts that gather up like white clouds only to dismantle,
cars and trains and motors can’t sustain my thirst of wonder and only fuel the frequency of dreams,
and 260 miles are never ever far enough to lose myself into that great cold blue…
I squeeze the air and call for wolves to run my sleigh over all these troubled waters that remain untouched,
where do I gather up the wood for fire for the upcoming winter and where will I stop to make a fire?
miles and miles they asked me yesterday to crawl, to forget the ash of letters and the face of ink,
but memories are lighthouse to the sin and innocence may be a foreign traveler never to return,
I will give them something to remember, flash and blood and poetry on stair steps of stone,
and in the size of all things that still matter I will lock it with a question in a prison they’ve not seen,
miles and miles into the great deep blue, where will I gather all that wood and where will I start that fire?

IF

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If this would be the last of days and I could never take a step further
and the hour of the choice has come and God is asking me to take a crown,
if rain would never ever stop to fall unless I am willing to make a call
and horsemen of the old would guard the exits and there is no where to run,
what is that I’d say to dad and which of them I’d want to shield
for storms and demons never touch my heart and never have my soul?

Once an evening long ago I’ve told us stories to recall
and sipping on a cup of tea we shared both hell and harmony,
and books I’ve opened to remember in a pub that ceased to serve the drinks
turned to slaves that had the fate of logs in winter at the lake…
And when the morning came with whistles and the night was like a fog
and the warmth in gloves would melt the ice and hold in place the bows,
the dream would find a way to go beyond the rocks and slippery slopes
and to give birth to youth anew,
to make me pierce the deep and strength return to arms…

If fearless I’m reborn to walk this morning to the river,
if fearless I am taking this sword I swore to ease upon the sinners,
if fearless is a testament graved upon my chest
I’d choose to loose them all
I’d choose to all forget
to wake upon the world as innocent and do not hold regret
if only I could all put back….

The game

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Uphill Kinsley road in a house where no soul passes
we’re all naked playing cards with the demons and the horses
and I dare you throw the dices in the middle of our game and score a five,
for heelless whispers without name may take your purpose off it’s way
and retired pastor’s preaches describe good reasons to remain
to put your boots aside and come and play with cards and chains…

Old floor screeches and there are steps in the dust
nothings moves through the cloud that nests in the house,
the furniture is covered by blankets that long lost their white
the stairs are heavy under memories that fell off your hair
and you are in bed with a ghost that did not even start to smoke,
and the carpet is gone between midnight and again…

Stick-figures are hiding aces and queens in the paintings below,
the gramophone box speaks in a thong that isn’t taught anymore
and there are dots and lines and the Pharaoh’s eyes on the walls,
the postbox outside is filled with grains of sweat and stories of war
and the bus never stops and the yard is a savanna of sorts
and you my friend have scored a five and forgot to ever go home…

Missing Sunday

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She was killing time in Montserrat
as she felt the boiling of the stone-chair in the cotton heart he digs
and she was holding back the anchors that led her to this place,
she took a photo of the band and two guys in leather jacket with a haircut to regret,
little prince upon a picture of a story that comes back
and a simple dress in almost white, an almost lover to confess,
the roses guide her steps to stairways leading to uncover all that rest..

He used to burn a pocket full of wonders in his chest,
arms around the trembling body of a secret shady deed not to forget
and the memories so sweet of the books she used to read and of those with funny breed,
and he used to let her to the facts while the night would do its heist and others slept,
bloody hands was all she had to turn from labor into calling mirror pieces, ash and sugar, fourteen years of days to last till the sunrise of a blast…

And she was killing all her time on a Sunday afternoon,
people heading up and down, whiskey, vodka and cigars
and the words would come and go raining tears in her soul,
while two strangers on a bench never got to have a chance,
on a Sunday afternoon when she’s loosing all again
in the darkness with no cover, with the eyelids to the floor
and the morning act of glory that reminds her of the old…