I am the
I am the darkness
the might to be
and the state of being I can not control,
a feeling
lost in between times
a single line going straight to you…
you are a friend
but not the one to me
and I scream into the void
I scream my will to exist
free from fear
free from the prison I have accepted in me
I will you to be,
the one
the one that is there waiting for me
a doorway to another existence
another chance to be
free form weight
open to all
gravity pulled
sunward emotion
I need a feeling to transform my devotion,
love me
adoration
I am but a soldier
unwanted commotion,
you love me
the emotion
I am
resolution
darkness
my way is commotion…
Honey
Dear friend,
I’ve lost my way going south…
trapped in a dream that is not really mine
building bricks to build up the Wall
people are wrong
tell me who you are,
I need music
my voice will it suffice?
when in the craving
I fill up the cases
and then fade in some way…
my fingers blue
my sight alright
are there any purple stars?
dancing
with
my
heart
there is not much light
on the other side
of the line I followed from the start;
Love –
how do you measure
how can one know
the steps you have taken
the strings you have severed
brought you any closer
or made you whole,
a simple choice
her hand is made of white noise…
10th+1 of November
1. COBRA SPELL – The Devil Inside Of Me
2. Vixen – Red
3. blink-182 – DANCE WITH ME
4. The Dirty Nil – The Light, The Void and Everything
5. Johnny Marr – Somewhere
6. Depeche Mode – My Favourite Stranger
7. Papa Roach – Leave A Light On
8. Future Islands – ‘The Tower’
9. Guns N’ Roses – Perhaps
10. Måneskin – HONEY (ARE U COMING?)
BONUS TRACK : Teddy Swims – Devil in a Dress
The Breaker
I am the darkness, I am the world
this is the suffering, do as you’re told
you have no choice,
it’s beyond control
in this dungeon, in the cold
this is where it takes your soul
immortal life from the above
you’ve been dreaming since day one…
I am the silence, I am the wreak
in this longing there is no break
there’s no fire for them to see
your eyes are filled with misery,
no equation, no chemistry
love’s a lie and so is she
shadow covered memories
you broke it all and you can’t feel…
I am the fate, the voice of reason
calling your name in this prison
stretch your arms,
break the machine
give your mind an atomic spin,
chase your devils, loose your hounds
I am fire, I am the blood
when I seek I never hold
never do as you were told!
For I am the voice, I am the rage
that never screams when out of stage,
I am the heat, I am the heart
I am the beat and the savage night,
thoughtful king and cruel master
a monster ride on a purple kite,
a beast of many sorts
I am the pure glorious life…
October’s 5
1. CASTLEBEAT – Sunlife
2. Poppy – Hard
3. Crazy Lixx – “Wild Child”
4. Bleachers – Modern Girl
5. LORD OF THE LOST – Destruction Manual
BONUS : Marilyn Manson – This is Halloween
told me long ago to listen for the signs
silence bursting out the darkest and most villain vibes
the night aligns the pounding in this cage
I am a hunter, I am also pray
hold you harder, in my dream I walk away
only invisible machines connect us to the stream
Words
I did not write a single word to tell you how I feel,
alcohol, cocaine and fears
my brightest bloom is here,
unsolvable commotion in the great white riddle
the night is here darkness never left this room
nothing is of what it seems
the fire river is born from tears
words are meaningless
they empty as they turn to bricks and build the walls…
The Wave
when music gives no vibe
silence is out of rhyme
listens to no spark
something is broken, is it the heart?
sleep, eat, think
it lasts less than a blink
it writes on a wave
the way home, my last goodbye…
it needs space
a window out of the gray
to float, away
far and straight, shapeless clay
hunger to shine
becoming as unsanctioned rain
the wave away
is in a dream that I’ve lost on the way…
Not a fool
Do not call me “Darling”, don’t ask me to be cool
you compete with Fortune, my heart is rock ‘n’ roll
on this highway ain’t a hiker and my tank is nearly full
I can’t cite from Shakespeare but I’m not a fool
and going back to Twin Peaks is of very last resort,
share this ride together until it’s coming to an end
cherish every moment for tomorrow’s just a gleam…
There will be no puppies and no tattoos on my hands
slow she poured Martini, I poured whisky on the coke
night was turning purple and the stars a shade of green
holding down the mountains one may hear a little scream
I have crossed the waters to what came from in between,
and in the storm I dream of shelter to the break of dawn
keeping straight is not a virtue but a ransom of its own…
Un Jurnal Neverosimil 