No other way

White Spider by Vindictus Art Gallery – https://www.pinterest.fr/pin/571323902708964885/

I pray to my Lord
to wake up one day and say to myself “there is no other way”
I’ve been weak
I have been Disturbed
listened to bad rock for my father’s good luck…
I am The Beast,
a giant crawler coming from East
invading the west with desire to nest
with no responsible fashion I invoke good tension, in your bones –
scream
moan
take what you want dearest Simone
you filthy loyal lovable whore
you turn my life into porn gore,
with the head in the sand it is you that’s going to bend
my precious doll,
I have no soul, you took it from me
drinking your poison set me free
let me be, touch and see, the garden of Eden is not for me
I must suffer, must endure –
Be my inspiration
late night vision and dark temptation
ignite my fire, give me wine and call me “Sire” in the Church and in my tower
make me devour
You!
kneel before me and take me good
like only true lovers should
I long to feel The Need, to drop a tear
before I paint your body with white smear,
give me children give me life,
transform me sweeter, help me be born twice,
for in the desert with no joy
you are my future where I am your toy
to play a new note on a tight chord,
exposing disaster
go faster
show me love’s wicked drug, exploit my desire
never tired
“there is no other way”…

Ultimul

Și dacă în romantismul meu nu e dragostea de vină,
ci prea multă dreptate,
și am scrijelit fantasme unde cuvintele sunt mute
izvoare, nu le-am lăsat să curgă
iar cu mâinile amândouă am rupt flori în noapte;
Cu ce inimă să vii spre mine
și ce inimă îmi rămâne
când încă spun o rugăciune printre zaruri aruncate
dar sunt nevrednic
și nu am fost vreodată
iar din teamă nasc himere și imposibile distanțe?

Love Glitter

I… AM
the music and the glitter
ideas, connected, and the space in between
a notebook with blank pages to be filled
stories
love
depression
what makes me alive if not pain?

I am between contradictions
going for size, color, harmony, feeling
an eye to the Lady on the wall with the hand seeking pleasure
redemption, maybe
and I did try the math, the logic, equations –
the heart opposed,
full stop
explosions
LSD –
Lucy, where are you Lucy?

Her prince came soon after
the place was empty
need
lack of time, indecision, illusion of choice
no need for white horse
happily
ever
after?

Beauty?
I do not see YOU
I relate what I feel
context
opposition
similarity
sound is heart of true meaning,
and you play the piano
faulty, scrambled yet real, all for me
easy to fall
deeper
into a lifetime of YOU and I…

I AM
you and I –
mirrored

Again

painted face
mud,
my arms have roots in this soil
rewind
my arms have roots in this soil
I ran –
I ran for the sundown
the silence
colored wavy red clouds
tiny,
the yellow was young
gray stalled
call me not
rusty scissored Todd,
cold
cold
the cigarettes I smoked
for love
blue dust
and nights in central park
rebound
cry
rebound
cry
rebound
the petrol skies
lost
in the eye
where do you end and when do I begin?
within
seek in
pages left wrong
the need to feel
right
I killed before I died –
stand tall
say grace
nothingness is asking for my space
the words
the waves
meaning or mess
mud painted face –
I caved
I gave
up, up and away
cripple
sum of all deeds
hope
hands in the stone
when expecting the least
I am the beast…

The Rope

They wrote it on a wall rising before me
charcoal on a stone to stand tall forever,
“Put down your hunger
and forget the gain,
rest your shadows
there is time today”

and I sat with the Lord
bowed down my sword
and with a wide heart I weighted the whole…

How often do you chase a pond in a lake
or a drop in the hay the days that it rains?
and I cut the rope,
harps start playing the obscure
the nights turn to clay
to mould them right out in a better way
with the veins in my hand
and the dreams that remain
like a vision I had back in the day…

The Mountain

June - Silver Demon 2020 Vinyl Album Artwork by Lee Douglas

Demon,
you want me on my edge
keeping me alive to make me fall again,
remembrance,
beautiful memories,
polka dot pink elephants that were seldom meant to be…
Oh demon,
stop threading rivers in the dark
don’t make me wish for miracles I never asked
for I am the sea,
with everything inside
I’d never lose my spark
not for love nor red blooded virgin isles…
Demon,
I am a mountain –
you are running backwards on my trails
in a sky so full of diamonds,
absolution
there is no crown and everything may break
but I am a mountain…